I have just realised that I am not able to express my emotions very well on this blog... It seems as though i cannot get myself to type out what is bothering me and I just keep everything bottled inside.
Sometimes I wonder if anyone can really know what I am thinking about or feeling....
It is like a conflict with myself. For eg, I like the fact that not a long of pple reads my blog as this is supposed to be the place that I vend my feelings but, being the a bit of an attention seeker, I want pple to read my blog...... Such conflict.....
It is like I know the correct behaviour I should have or demostrate but I can't help myself but feel like rebelling.... It is like the symbol for my horoscope, pisces. The 2 fishes swimming in 2 directions....
Really should be more honest to myself.....
I really dun feel like doing anything to my weight. I don't care what you see me as but pls keep ur comments to yourselves and stop stepping on my already low self-esteem....
In fact, I think I have allowed my low self-esteem and confidence gone too far and prevented myself from doing well in my studies. I let all my habits stay around me like vicious snakes, coiling themselves ard me, slowly killing me on their way.....
